How Does Trauma Affect Taking Your Own Life?

The bottle , the pills, the silence, the room spinning.


The day I skipped over.


The hopelessness, despair, pain,anger make the walls feel as if they are closing in tight.


We feel invisible, we feel worthless.


The emotions take over us piece by piece , bit by bit.


Going through such horrific and unimaginable  trauma first hand you feel that your greatest escape is ending it all.


I know these feelings all too well.


They are definitely familiar as I struggled to pull myself out of my own hell.


Then how selfish was I?


How could I let down the people I love?


How could I let down the people that were counting on me for justice to be served?


How was exiting  going to solve the problems ?


It wasn’t going to solve anything, it would have done more hurt and damage to the ones who love me most.


I have a duty to pay it forward by getting justice served.


I had an obligation to the law.


I needed to step up to the plate.


I had an incredible support system , yet to this day I am beyond grateful for each and every person.


Some people don’t have support.


The support can be at your fingertips.


Helplines are available 24/7, world wide, nation wide.


Counselling is available if you can’t afford there are different grants you can apply for.


There are support groups where you could potentially meet a new friend that is going through the same thing you are.


It’s all about reaching out to your community. 


It’s not by any means a sign of weakness, it’s a sign of strength and hope.


It gets you to where you need to be.


Find your passion in life rather it;s singing, dancing, painting,  running, the gym,  and journaling.


Unlock your passion that creates the change in your life. 


That's how you find light in times of darkness by finding yourself.


Restructuring and rebuilding your life.


Focus on the here and the now.


Focus on what you can control versus what you can’t.


Be present in the moment.


Look how far you have come, and be proud and acknowledge that.


Tell yourself that tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning, a fresh start.


Have people in your life that will motivate you and bring you up in times of weakness , and loneliness.


Have people that will support you and not judge, just listen.


You need people who will rally around you.


People who are suffering on the streets need mental health resources.


They need affordable housing.


They need education on suicide, courses that bring awareness to the table.


Survivors of trauma need community engagement, mental health care, strengthening household  financial security, increasing accessibility to mental health care, parenting skills, and family relationship programs.


Acceptance from your support network, people in which you can count on and trust.


You can choose how you want to write your story. 


You have the ability and power to choose a life worth fighting for.


You are worthy, you are enough. You are beautiful on the inside and outside. You have the ability to impact lives.


 To make most of every day, and make every moment count.


You have the ability to become everything you want to be.


Here is the National Suicide Prevention  Hotline number 1-800-273-8255


Reach out, it will change your life for the better.


You will get through it. 


Believing is key.